—–It’s my blogs first birthday!——

This is almost more exciting than my actual birthday.

Except that this year a friend threw me a 36 (ish) hour long party in a sun haven alternate universe so actually not, but almost!

Here’s the first post I ever wrote.
Check out how drastically my understanding of formatting has improved!

What I actually think this is as exciting as, is a wedding anniversary. Commitment is no simple feat. Only difference is I’m married to my art, and trust me baby it isn’t always easy.

But it’s the looooooooove of my lyyyyyyyyyyyyyyfe!
*I cried all sing song like, and then fell face first out of some romantically decorated balcony, but got right back up and yearned for it all again just the same anyway.

Damnit. You know the feeling?

A friend of mine just posted a link on Twitter yesterday about how people can now legally marry websites. Don’t get weird about it, that’s not what this is!

But perhaps it is more like an anniversary than a birthday after all, maybe, I’m not sure.

Either way,

*I’m doing a ‘feeling proud of myself dance’ alone in my bed that I share with a pile of rotting leaves and torn up fashion magazines disguised as ‘visual research resources’.

Charles Bukowski on the meaning of life:

For those who believe in God, most of the big questions are answered. But for those of us who can’t readily accept the God formula, the big answers don’t remain stone-written. We adjust to new conditions and discoveries. We are pliable. Love need not be a command or faith a dictum. I am my own God.

We are here to unlearn the teachings of the church, state and our educational system.

We are here to drink beer.

We are here to kill war.

We are here to laugh at the odds and live our lives so well that Death will tremble to take us.

found via: Explore – For those who believe in God, most of the big….

Thoughts on a Home Hunt/Like Trying to Fall in Love by Next Week

I’ve been internet shopping for an apartment in Montreal for weeks and it feels almost like I’m internet dating with a home for the next part of my life and it makes me wonder, how anyone can stand to internet date (for real) at all, because love to me is all in the instincts, the feelings, the quirks, and these things are terribly hard to read through a screen, but even in between the negotiations of how much I’m willing to pay and what neighborhood I’ll be in and if they like cats, I have been able to find a few places thats character and charm speaks to me (and some I even yearn for) but then it’s all ‘well they haven’t called me back…’ and ‘someone got to them right before me…’ and ‘well, maybe I only liked them because I was drunk…’.

And in my (possibly foolish, unrealistic, unpractical and idealist) romantic ways, I’d like to believe that there’s an apartment out there (with all requirements met) that’ll be perfect for me(and my roommate) and exactly what I need right now, and that when it works out it’ll feel natural and comforting, and that maybe that’s possible within the next week? Yikes!

Home hunting feels like dating because it’s all like a delicate dance of mutual desire.

Image Search: Intimacy

As part research, part -this is what I do when I’m lacking physical intimacy in my life, look at, watch and read about other people being intimate- I spent about 3 hours on we ❤ it looking through photographs tagged ‘intimacy’. Here are my favorites: